So, I’ve been back from my holiday for a while, but I’ll be honest it’s been a bit of a roller-coaster.
My emotions have been all over the place and I’ve felt like a teenager trapped in a grown woman’s body. If crying was an Olympic sport, I would most certainly have won gold!
My anxiety has been through the roof and overwhelmed has been my middle name. I hadn’t been able to run due to the weather and a new shift pattern and to top it all, I was feeling very taken for granted.
Not the ‘Me’ we all know and love.
I had my suspicion’s but now that I have had things confirmed by my lovely GP, I know I am definitely suffering from being menopausal. I won’t lie – it’s not fun, but somehow having it confirmed have made things a whole lot easier. It’s so nice to know I am not going completely doolally!
Sure I find the loss of words from my vocabulary annoying and I can deal with the occasional hot flush, but feeling over emotional/anxious has made me feel like I am out of control and spiraling head first into a cow pat of doom! The lack of sleep only adds to the equation and the weird mood swings are just not funny.
Thank goodness I am finally in a place where I can joke about it. Looking back, the last few months have been getting more and more difficult without me realising and I was even anxious at times on holiday, even though I had absolutely nothing to be anxious about!
The good news is that it seems to go away as quickly as it arrives and there are some things I can do to help. I am back to running and have started taking Evening Primrose oil. I have managed to have the right conversations with the right people about how they can support me more and have had sixty million hugs when I have needed them.
Just like everything I know it’s just a phase and it will pass (although it can last for years), but for now I just have to baton down the hatches and push on regardless. However, if you do notice a bit of a lull in blogs, or come across an overemotional screaming heebie jeebie woman, please remember, I may be human after all!
Whatever you are going through, always remember there is support out there so hang tight and reach out to people, there is always light at the end of every tunnel.
In the meantime, Stay Sassy
Lots of love